The roller coaster I am on...

Life has been a roller coaster for me lately. Actually for my WHOLE family.

My mom was diagnosed with Inflammatory Breast Cancer a few weeks ago, and had her first chemo last Friday. With me always being the "sick" one, I never really understood how hard it is to watch someone you love be sick (and in pain). Both of my kids have had surgeries. But the pain lasted days, not weeks and months. I have experienced every emotion possible over this past month. Anger, sadness, worry, and lastly hope. What is life without hope? I don't even want to know. I do however know that my mom means the world to me. She is not only my mother, but best friend, mentor, a great person to laugh with, my health advocate when I can't be...and so much more. She has taught me how to be the strong person I am today. She will beat this. In the mean time it really sucks.

To top off the emotions (yes, I can get emotional), I miss my brother like crazy. There have been many moments that I just so badly want to pick up the phone and call him, or have him here to joke around with. That is our very inappropriate way to handle tough times. We are strange. I like strange. I miss him.

There has been drama that I have been thrown into (and jumped right back out for my own sanity), my own health issues, and what feels like a million other things being thrown at me (all at once). If there was ever a time I needed it, many prayers, nice words (or at least not mean ones), and hugs (and maybe a little understanding) would be nice. I have the best family and friends in the world, and my God is taking care of me.

He has already given me two beautiful, cookie covered smiles to wake up too every morning and wee little arms to wrap around my neck. A wonderfully supportive husband who will let me talk his ears off (not too sure if he is really listening after the first few minutes, but that doesn't matter!). And hope. I do have hope. This too shall pass.